I loved having such clear answers to questions many struggle to answer their entire lives. But embedded in this simply beautiful plan were requirements that felt impossible for me to fulfill authentically. According to Mormon doctrine, if I hoped for eternal exaltation, I needed to marry a woman in a Mormon temple. If I didn't complete this commandment I wouldn't get to be with God or my family for eternity. As a gay man, this particular commandment felt overwhelming. And the more I strived to obey it, the more hopeless I felt. Did God set me up to fail?